This Writer: Facing the Fear of Excellence

Some of you have noticed my sporadic attendance in posting these last few months, and I thank you for your encouraging words.  I have been occupied by an annoyance of sorts: no not defending the universe from hoards of bad guys, not working out twenty-five hours a day to qualify for the London 2012 Olympics, and certainly not sitting in my vault at Gringots counting my wizard gold.

I have been facing an impenetrable wall called The Fear of Excellence and trying to figure out a way over, under or through.

When I first started posting on WordPress.com I had no idea what I was doing and frankly the first couple of months were nothing.  Aimless actually.  Then in February 2011 I started getting comments.   Well first it was ‘comment’ and that came from Tricia at the domestic fringe on February 25, 2011.  Then Joss popped in, then Pat Cegan and then Colleen.  That original group is still with me along with a few others.  That’s when I started writing to an audience.  So for the rest of 2011 I started posting whatever popped into my cranium.  I cheered on my blogging friends who achieved the sacred Freshly Pressed status and began to toy with the idea that I too might make The List.  Then the persistent thought became rather annoying and I decided not to focus on it at all.

I kept reading successful bloggers trying to determine exactly what ‘successful’ meant.

The IT happened.  The Wall.  The Wall of Excellence.  Well I was thrilled!  I spent days reading every post, my heart pounding with excellence as I viewed HER body of work.

First emotion – Joy – – Inspiration, excitement.
Second emotion – Laughter -Yes!  That is the standard I seek!
Third emotion – thread of caution  – um….maybe
Fourth emotion – Fear – I can’t do that! (this one lasted quite a long time)

Convinced I wanted to raise the bar, but gripped by The Fear of Failure or The Fear of Success I stopped regular posts. And even worse I stopped working on my novel, ‘Propagation’.

Have you ever lost your footing? Your grip? Your mind? Due to fear?

That Fear, that Excellence has a name and it is Cecilia at thekitchensgarden.

After wrestling with the demons of the dark side I finally found inspiration again.  I discovered I wasn’t afraid of Celi or her talent.  I was afraid of myself but succeeded in calmly thinking things out.  Now it might seem that calmly thinking took but a few minutes but it took ages.  Simply ages.

Finally going full circle I decided I could raise the bar by working at getting better.
First I needed a theme and to find it started a series of FITFS – following in the footsteps – writing about bloggers I admire and discovering what makes them successful.
Second for the ‘Oh The Plots We Weave’ series I looked at news stories and considered the possibilities for fiction.
Third I discovered a desire to do a ‘This Writer Series’ for all other subject matter.

Next I needed to commit to a schedule.  Three Themes – Three days.  It will look something like this:

Monday Mayhem – Oh The Plots We Weave
Wednesday – This Writer
Friday – FITFS

With a number of changes, challenges and events I have not been able to think about Propagation for months.  Characters and story lines sit patiently waiting to be given a voice.  Now that I am doing all this bar raising I have a sense of purpose and direction.

So what bars are you raising?

*I know this is Tuesday not Wednesday but ‘This Writer” just could not wait one more day.  When a plan comes together, one simply must act.

Imagine If You Will

Imagine If You Will

Imagine if you will….you are fifty-nine years old and someone offers you a dream job that will last thirty-three years making your retirement age ninety-two.  AND at that age you will not consider it retirement, but just the opportunity to go on to something else.

Imagine if you will….your job is to talk..and talk…about anything that has caught your interest or your ire and all you have to do is sound off.

Imagine if you will…you can talk about the mundane, politics, religion, issues and non-issues and actually get paid for it.

Imagine if you will…you will make ‘curmudgeon’ something adorable and you never have to change who you are.  Ever.

Just imagine.  

That is a hint to the life of Andy Rooney whose last broadcast was Sunday past.  I never regularly watched Sixty Minutes largely due to scheduling and the fact that I question the integrity of every ‘investigative’ show (part of my untrusting nature I guess), but when I did watch it, it was for one reason only, that being Mr. Rooney himself.  It didn’t matter what the subject of the evening, what mattered was the unique twist about to be presented, whether it be how mixed are mixed nuts, or issues of a more sensitive nature.

His actual point of view did not matter, but what did matter is that someone actually displayed freedom of speech publicly  true freedom of speech because for a long time time now I have suspected that right is simply an illusion and now with Mr. Rooney gone from his podium I am afraid we will never see it again in a public forum.  Ever.

Thank you Andy Rooney.  May your next adventure be as fabulous!

Imagine if you will….

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Andy_Rooney

Snipewife Musings and Awards

Snipewife Musings and Awards

 

When I first connected with Snipewife I was intrigued by her moniker.  Was this a blog site for sniping at folks or issues? No way! To find out the true meaning you will have to visit her at Snipewife.wordpress.com

 It has taken me awhile to continue with awarding 15 bloggers recognition of their writing and sharing thoughts and information. Life gets in the way as they say but I continue on.

My twist in passing on the rewards has been to relate 7 things about the recipients that I have not had to make up.  This means scouring sites and reading posts which is a pleasure and education in itself.

 So 7 items of interest:

 1)     Her site is labeled ‘musings of a sea widow’

2)     She is a wife and a Mom whose husband is away months at a time.

3)     She has posts under the category United States Merchant Marine Academy which are informative especially for myself

4)     I’ve learned that ghost writing for student thesis and other papers is a huge industry (but not an honorable one I think)

5)     She hosts an annual Writer’s Workshop: Annual Girls’ Weekend and was an editor in a past life.

6)     She claims to have no rhythm and does not dance however when you read her words you know the lady has rhythm!

7)     She is strong in her faith and her faith keeps her strong!

 

Congratulations Snipe Wife – who doesn’t snipe at all!

 

 

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