CERN, God Particle

 

It’s a bright sunny warm morning here on the east mountain and the day is yet to begin for this household as G1 and G2 have not yet arisen, which is somewhat unusual although it could be a carry over from two previous nights of watching fireworks.  Canada is 145 years old and comparatively young compared to the old world but still worthy of celebration.

The first item I spotted in the local rag, The Hamilton Spectator, is that ‘Physicists inch closer to proof of ‘God particle’.

Now I love all things CERN aka the European Organization for Nuclear Research and am especially intrigued by its $10 billion atom smasher, not because I understand it (as posted previously) but because of the intrigue.  CERN exists way underground on the Swiss-French border so there is a certain futuristic weird stuff to the whole idea.  It seems that little Higgs Boson subatomic particle,’that if confirmed could help explain why matter has mass, which combines with gravity to give an object weight.’. HUH??

See what I mean??  To me it seems easily explained and I don’t see where God particles come into this. Though I have no idea  what…well anyway, now this very statement will occupy much of my thinking today. All things CERN tickle my grey cells especially since it reports that scientists have compiled ‘vast’ amounts of data that show the footprint and shadow of the particle.

Well I suppose if one must delve at subatomic levels and spend billions of dollars doing it then good for them.  I suspect people of faith, any faith already know.  (And yes I am not looking for an argument on the existence or non-existence of God). Faith means many things and really that discussion is better left to others.

Rob Roser from the Fermilab in Chicago compared the results to finding ‘the fossilized footprint of a dinosaur saying: ‘You see the footprint and the shadow of the object, but you don’t actually see it.

HUH???  Sounds a little like a barker at a circus, Now you see it!  Now you don’t!

I’ve Got Your Back JanieG

Peace


I have Your Back JanieG

The times they are a changin’

In this year of losing control

Our lives are battered by circumstance

As we tumble, stumble and roll.

A year of deep frustration

To many in our inner fold,

Lives ripped from comfort existent peace,

As we tumble, stumble and roll.

You are my best friend and sis,

My rock and buffer when winds blow.

My back to reality check when

As we tumble, stumble and roll.

Nary a day passes by

Without a tea, a laugh or crow

About the day, our victories when,

As we tumble, stumble and roll.

We all will find our footing.

This turbulence and wind will go

And while the miles will be a bit more

As we tumble, stumble and roll

The essence of what we are,

Cast in genes and love will console.

The miles are few, the laughs are many

As we tumble, stumble and roll.

You’re not losing your best friend,

And we are gaining more control

As those vicious winds calm  no more will

We tumble, stumble and roll.

Signed with love, as you love to say,

Your Royal Highnass!

Yesterday Was It?- The Best Day of My Life – WAS IT?

Yesterday I blogged about my horoscope and the best day of my life.

This is what the prediction was:

“Listen closely to the wind, for the answers are blowing around right in front of you today, christine. Make contact with people you haven’t heard from in a while. You will find that you can be quite productive today in situations that you least expect. Ironically, the less you plan, the more you will get accomplished. Be spontaneous in your actions. Revelations will come to you like lightening.”

THIS is what happened:

I read the above and thought whooohooo!  
I leaped, well almost from leaped from my bed, into my suit and headed down to my pool for a few invigorating laps.
Feeling charged, showered, dressed and off to my fav coffee shop for a treat of half waffle with fruit and yogurt and coffee waiting for this answers to start swirling.
Did my post there, researched information on Empaths, and headed home to plan a day of further delights.  Of course the plan, can you plan it? was to be spontaneous.

About an hour later I ran into a problem.  I started trembling.  Hmm I thought, is it possible I am getting a revelation?  The trembling got worse.  And worse.  My hands shook so badly I could not pick up a pen and could barely hit the buttons on the phone.
The revelation? – call your sister and get to Emerg -something was definitely wrong,

Now I have not been well for about a month.  And being a good nurse I usually wait things out just to see if they will get better on their own.  Went to my doc a week ago and got antibiotics for a possible kidney thing.  No improvement.

I have never been to Emerg on the receiving end but knew it would be a long wait.  No hockey game that day. (the news had reported that when there is a major playoff game the ERs are deserted).  Nuts.

But service wasn’t bad.  It was good in fact.  Hmmm did this mean I was really sick?  So blood tests and x-rays.  Nice nurses and cute doc.

Not done yet.  Back for a CT scan at 2:30 this afternoon.

A little history – my birthday celebrations  for number 64 of last week held special meaning.
Both my parents died young of cancer of the pancreas, my dad at 57 and my mom at 63, so hitting 64 was a milestone.  A victory.  I figured I missed that genetic prophecy.  Right now of course that is sort of up in the air as the symptoms are..suggestive.

So was this horoscope accurate?  YES!
1)  The answers were blowing right in front of me.  In my dizziness that’s exactly what they were doing..blowing and floating.
2). Make contact with people I hadn’t heard from in a while…well as a patient in ER it certainly was a long long while.
3). Productive in situations I least expect..uh huh..no doubt about that one!
4). The less I planned the more I get accomplished – rather the more some people got accomplished.
5). I was very spontaneous – very!
6). Revelations will come like lightening.  Cannot argue that one.  At all.

It was a good horoscope.  It made me look after some rather pressing matters, and today I will finish that up.

So to:
 Tracy at ihaveabackbone.wordpress.com the first comment I read this morning – Yes one way or another, I guess it was the best day, though I might have wished for a little different! :)

Elizabeth at http://eof737.wordpress.com/ thanks for your kind words and yes we will see how it goes!

Sana my fav doc at http://friendtoyourself.wordpress.com I will keep on!

Colleen my Chatter Master friend at http://bikecolleenbrown.wordpress.com/ Aren’t we both having fun with our health this month? Yes and have to agree..gotta love the potential? :)

Cassie at http://cassiebehle.wordpress.com/ Tylenol did not help that particular blast of genius!

Nance at http://www.maturelandscaping.com/ What an incredible answer thank you for the fabulous information! Loved it!

Joss at http://crowingcrone.wordpress.com/ the day was magnificent..in it’s own way!

Kat at http://emotionalfitnesstraining.com/ that’s a fascinating history I guess the truth will out!

My horoscope today?
Maybe I will just skip reading these any more.  Nah probably not!

Today is an important day for you to make valuable connections with others, christine. You will find yourself engaged in fast paced, witty conversations and debates from which you can learn a great deal. You are good at seeing both sides of an issue, but the problem is that this can lead to incisiveness and an inability to commit to anything. Choose a path today and stick to it

Have a great day my readers.  Make it so! I will!

Twice in a Lifetime..not….

Twice in a Lifetime….not

I find myself pondering a question that at first thought seemed easy to answer.  Many years ago there was a Canadian TV show called Twice in a Lifetime.  There was a male angel, cute as a button, who would be present at the time of death.  The deceased always had some deficiency that put their soul in jeopardy and thanks to the angel, they would then get an opportunity to go back to one point in their life to change the outcome. Invariably the deceased would conquer and the end showed them in fact restored to life – as if they had stayed on a true and proper path.

In the last few years I periodically have asked people what point in their lives they would return to – to change something if given a chance.  One friend who had experienced the worst kind of abuse as a young child said she would never have answered the door that day when a knock came.    She didn’t hesitate for even a second.  We have been friends for years and I always forget that decades later she still lives with that.

Most people don’t have such painful turning points but most can think of some point where they took a left when they should have turned right. Maybe a failed exam, or turning point or turning down a particular appointment or date.

I don’t find myself as lucky.  Every time I think of a possible trigger changing event my mind considers all the fallout effects about other good things that followed in spite of my errors in judgement.

There is no one point where I would change the course of my life. Instead there are multiple truths I ignored at one time or another that I would like to go back and embrace when I did not:

Do unto others….
Save ten percent..
Onto thine own self…
Be quiet and listen…
Be the kind of friend…
Honor thy….

There may not be a true Twice in a Lifetime and  thank God for that..instead each day is new and when we open our eyes we have a chance to do it better than the day before…or the year before..or…
For some of us it is baby steps cause just when I think I have conquered a mountain, I realize my biggest sin is congratulating myself for being so darn good..and I lose humility.  If I am not humble I am not seeing the scope of my own frailty, or the scope of God’s Greatness.

Nuts..then it is like…back to the beginning…sigh.

Do you have one pivotal point where you would have changed your course of action?

Was it a Dream?

Was it a dream????

I have had the honor to attend several deaths through out my decades in nursing.  Probably more than a hundred.  Most have been good, some inspiring and a few …well…

One I will remember forever, even though this one time I was not there.

Many many years ago…read decades here.. I worked in a nursing home.  Most of the home comprised of private apartments and we also had a small twenty-eight bed sick unit.  When I made rounds each day I always stopped in to see one particular couple.  They were English and very proper and deeply in love even after almost seventy years of marriage.  Just being around them made you feel good.

I was with the doctor the day he had to tell Mr. M he had lung cancer and not long to live.  No this is not a smoking story – the man had never puffed in his life.  After the doctor left I returned to see how my English gent was doing.  I asked him how he felt about the news.  He said, “Chris I am ninety-two years old.  I am a Christian so I know I will see my sons and other family that have passed.  But life is precious and if I was two hundred it would still be too soon to leave it.”

As the next few weeks passed Mr. M got weaker and finally ended up in our sick unit, bed ridden and emaciated.  I had Monday and Tuesday off so when I gave report to the next shift on Sunday I said that Mr. was weak but holding his own.

I went off to enjoy my days with my young family.  Just after midnight on Monday I had a dream in which I woke up in my bedroom to find Mr. M standing beside my bed.  He was smiling.  I was distressed and asked him what he was doing there.  That he was sick and had to get into his bed.  He smiled and said that I did not understand and to come with him.  I found myself standing bedside his bed in the Home.  He was standing beside me and then I noticed he was also peacefully in his bed.

I could not formulate any thoughts, let alone words and just stared at him.  He smiled again and said that he had to go but he was going to tell “them” how kind and good I was.  I panicked once it dawned on me what he was saying.  I found myself begging him not to tell anyone.  I said “they” knew me and knew I was not good and please please don’t say anything.  He smiled again, so sweetly, and then he was gone.

I woke to find myself sitting up in bed.  I looked at the clock – it was two-twenty a.m.  Thinking what a strange dream it was I went back to my slumbers and forgot about it.

Wednesday I returned to work and was getting report from the night staff.  I pointed out that they forgot report on Mr. M.  The nurse said that he had died. After what felt like a long pause I asked when he died.  Two-twenty Tuesday morning.

For several days after that I was not sure what to do with that information but I felt like there was something I was supposed to do.
His wife kept coming to mind but I resisted thinking sure I’m supposed to go to this old grieving lady and tell her I spoke with her dead husband.  But the thought would not go away so feeling forced and more than a little stupid I went to the apartment.

We chatted about nothing really and then I told her bout the dream.  I wasn’t sure what to expect but she just quietly said, “Thank you dear, I knew if there was a way he could  let me know he was alright he would.  And he has.”

I don’t think of it often, but every now and then……

Keeping that Angel Close

Keeping that Angel Close

I had something unpleasant to face today.  My world operates better when it is through rose colored glasses.  Not the make believe unrealistic kind but the ones where I see a silver lining in anything.

I have discovered that it doesn’t matter as much what the world throws at you but how you perceive, how you react to it.  Old Rose Kennedy was just one of many who said that it doesn’t matter it just matters how you handle it.

2011 has been a year of awakening.  I study, I meditate, I give thanks.  Sometimes in all this enlightenment I forget to remain humble and get carried away with the joy of how much I have learned and that is never a good thing.  Giving thanks is essential for happiness but thankfulness cannot be sincere unless one is first humble.

Yesterday was the first time this year a feeling of fear descended upon me.  Over reaction to something that might possibly happen – today.

Then I read The War Fish’s Lair post today and the angel he imagined he had walking with him.  So I took an angel with me.  Imagining it first, then feeling it. And true enough it went well and my state of thankfulness is exactly where and how it should be.

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